Today

I don't feel so good.. by my first post you could see that.. I'm actually frustrated.. and maybe depressed but I don't even understand my own feelings.. I'll tell you what's been happening these past few months.. that is, if I feel like telling everything.. It hurts..

January:
- Back to school time
   Nothing much happened..

February:

My friend's ex-boyfriend has been bothering her.. I guess it's cause he broke up with 'Akuma' again... My friend DID go back with him after I told her not to (it was one time.. I couldn't change her mind if I wanted to) and I thought she knew better after being played by him last year (I yelled at her to break up with him last year.. he was STUPID!!). She's been telling me all her problems and I sometimes give advice..

There's this guy at another class that keeps bothering me to get together with him.. I did but only cause I sympathize him.. but it was only for 3 days because he scares me..

My glasses broke.. as some of you may or may not know, I have sight problems.. I'm short-sighted.. My friend (the same one on the firsth pragraph) was playing with it and it broke.. They said another friend, who sits beside me, dropped it the other day..

I'm helping my friend to forget about her good for nothing ex.. He sent a text to her saying he was forbidden to be with anyone (meaning he broke up with her.. THROUGH A DAMN TEXT!!) but then a few days later, she saw him walking with 'Akuma' =.= Besides, it would be easier for us to move next year without having a boyfriend, right? .w.

This month:

Guess what! that guy who I got together with for only 3 days? yeah~ he's asking for my friend's number now .w. HE'S A COWARD! He couldn't even go by himself XD He had to ask his friend (who is my ex.. that I still love) to get it for him! (He asked me out through facebook .w. COWARD? HELL YES!)

My ex, as mentioned above, is confusing me.. It's like he wants me in his life (we're still friends, btw) but at the same time, he doesn't.. When I asked for his friend's number (my friend wanted it), he sent me a text like he was mad.. and asked me to call him.. I did and explained why I wanted Rafi's (yes.. that's his name) number.. he sounded.. somewhat.. relieved?

We had our test the week before and lemme tell ya.. MY CLASSMATES ARE FRUSTRATING! I mean! GAH! They asked for answers on tests!! even questions that a 7 year old could answer! UGGGGHHH! ESPECIALLY MUSIC! I MEAN HELLOOO??? HAVE YOU NOT BEEN PAYING ATENTION TO WHAT MISS CATHERINE THOUGHT US?! gosh! If you act like this in PMR then I can't say what's in store for you.. As a friend, I would say good luck, but we're more to classmates then friends so yeah...

I got a Tablet this week~ Mr. Tabby is full of scratches by now *sad face* but! I hope to collect money and save up for a Wacom Tab~! Mine's a Genius at the moment .w.

My eyes hurt.. I have a headache.. and I think I got a fever or something.. (this is from today)

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If you read that, you'd probably noticed I didn't say any of this to my friends.. Didn't wanna worry them and everything ^^; but I think if I keep up this 'Happy-go-lucky' 'I have no problem' and 'I wanna see you smile' attitude, I'd break one day .____.

well.. That's all.. thank you for reading this unnecesarily long rant.. Forgive any harsh words and grammar mistakes... I'm sick okay? whaddya expect? I even hurts to swallow